All roll into one

9 March 8pm
I was mesmerized by our speaker, Lai Keng Pousson. Dee introduced her as a true prayer warrior. She talked about the perseverence of prayer, of never giving up, of prayer lasting beyond our life time. She talked about how prayer is to change status quo. She said the Lord told her not to accept title for she is already ordained by God. The Lord wanted her to be ordinary so she can relate to ordinary people, people of everyday life. She told our women group that we should never give up on having a mate for the Lord designed for most of us to have a mate to serve Him in a even more powerful way. That unless we have been specially set aside by the Lord to serve Him as a single woman, that we should never give up on praying to the Lord to give us someone that "deserve" us. For the Lord has said that for a man to choose a good wife, he will have good things. Thank you Lord for reminding me to never give up praying to you and to never accept status quo!
9March 1pm
My second session of Alpha. Today's topic was Who is Jesus? I thought Nicky Gumble presented a very logical explanation of why Jesus is real. We then had an open discussion to talk about what we have heard. We broke into small groups and in our group there were a few pre-believers. One guy played the devil's advocate and was asking what if even with all those copies that were written about Jesus in the New Testament, how do we know it's true? Maybe all these people are from a cult or they simply copied from each other. How do we know that it's the truth? Our facilitator is a gentle-man and he said that although it's not impossible but it's likely to be improbable. He said that if Jesus is not real, then even if people were simply copying from each other, they would cease after-awhile as people would feel that it's a hoax. If tens of thousands of people are willing to "copy" the story then there must be some truth. The guys was still twisting the words and I don't know what came over me. I started to get irritated and self-righteous and challenged his belief in historical figures like Ceasar or Heredoctus and whether he think they are real although there are far less copies of stories devoted to them. He didn't want to asnwer and I just kept pushing and pushing as if I was in a battle. Afterward I felt terrible. What if this pre-believer gets turn off by my action because he thinks all Christian behave so badly! I have displayed no traits of Christ's character. Please forgive me my Father in Heaven, for I have let you down. I pray that the man will return to hear Your Words for You are the Light, the Truth and the Life!
7/8March 630am
Maybe this is my quiet time with the Lord. Maybe the way the Lord wants me to spend time with Him is not necessary sitting in a room alone. I went running both monrings. Got up at 630am and went out for my run. It was quiet and still dark outside. I ran and ran and had my ipod on. But I could feel Him, He reminded me to count my blessings. Thank you Lord Father for giving me such amazing parents. They are loving, caring, patience, and have given only the best to us and love us unconditionally. Thank you Lord for my sister and my brother. They are not just my siblings but my best friends. They are always there for me and love me even when I am being ridiculous. Thank you Lord for giving me the gift of discipline, of strength, of compassion so that I may serve You through serving Your children. Thank you Lord for surrounding me with brothers and sisters in Christ so that I will not easily stray, that they are there to pray for me and to love me and to remind me of Your Words and Your Love and Your Faith!

Lord Father, You are the Alpha and the Omega. Thank you Jesus for sitting at the right hand of our Heavenly Father, to continue to pray and intercede for us 24/7! Praise You and Thank You for our past, our present and our future. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!

Sometimes you just want to be alone

Saturday was a busy day. I got off to a good start with "Saturday Solitude" with the Lord. Our cell group met at the Botanical Garden and then set off to spend quiet time with the Lord. Since this was the first time for some of us to spend quiet time with the Lord so we thought an hour will be a good start. I strolled off slowly to find a quiet place. I walked past the Evolution Garden and thought about finding a quiet corner to sit down. Then somehow it didn't feel right, I mean evolution and God...So I started walking again and then I stumbled upon a few huge "canopy" like structure and decided that it would be a good place.
I started with praising the Lord and thanking Him for everything he has done in my life. Then very quickly I started to repent and ask for forgiveness for all the wrong things that I have done. Now that was a pretty long list! I then opened the bible to read and came across a very important verse. Now to be honest as well, I was reading 3March in my One Year Bible because I didn't read it on Friday night! But God works in such awesome way because I had to read it that morning during solitude time to really get what He has been trying to tell me. "I assure you that you can say to this mountain, May God life you up and throw you into the sea, and your command will be obeyed. All that's required is that you really believe and do not doubt in your heart. Listen to me! You can pray for anything, and if you believe, you will have it. But when you are praying, first forgive anyone you are holding a grudge against, so that your Father in heaven will forgive your sins, too." Mark 11:23-25
The two major areas I have been struggling with are having faith in God and forgiveness. And just as I wanted to pray and to hear God, He told me what I need to do! He is just so amazing and awesome!
Then on Sunday I didn't go to church. However, I must say usually when I "slack" off from church I feel quite awful but this time I spent time at home alone with God. I sang worship songs, I read the bible and I felt the presence of the Lord. I guess sometimes you just want to be alone!

A night of prayer

Last Thursday during cell group was an evening of Prayer. Our cell leader Addie wanted us to truely practice in hearing the Lord and to pray for others. So we paired up with a cell sister and started to pray. Before the prayer, we all have to spend a minute praising God vocally and openly in order to lift up our spirit and then we hear what Rhema or Word God tells us to pray for the other person. The 1st prayer was quite amazing as both my prayer partner and I have the same Word from the Lord, LOVE. And our prayer for each other is different eventhough it's the same Word. What truely amazed me is that my prayer partner prayed that the Lord will soften my heart. Praise God! My prayer partner doesn't really know me well and in fact in the cell group, no one ever suspects I have a "hard heart". In many ways I have been through many relationships and with my job of constantly moving, I have to toughen myself in order to make sure I "survive". And My Heavenly Father, I do so much want to soften my heart. So THANK YOU and PRAISE YOU LORD for giving me those Words.
After the 1st prayer we changed partners and do the same thing again. This time my prayer partner gave me a verse, Matthew11:28-30 "Then Jesus said, Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke fits perfectly, and the burden I give you is light." PRAISE YOU LORD! Again it's true that I tend to take on alot because I think I can. I also am not good at asking for others to pray for me or even to pray for myself. I do feel weary and sometimes even want to give up but I still have not learned to depend on the LORD and give Him my burden.
Thank you Lord for You are truely awesome! You have given me your Words through my beloved sisters, your beloved children. I faithfully pray that I will heed Your Words and soften my heart and come to You for rest! Amen!