Far away

It's been almost a month since I last wrote anything in my blog. I could say it's because I have been busy and that would not be entirely wrong. I could also say that I have been a bit lazy and that would also be quite true. Or I could say it's because I got nothing earth-shattering to share so maybe best to wait a bit.

The truth is I feel I have been moving away from God. I see that as I suppose to mature as a Christian, that I am starting to see the parable of God's Words about the seed that falls onto the ground with thorns growing around it. That the seed took root and grew but at the end was strangled by the thorns that were growing around the plant. The world is catching up and pushing me along very quickly. The earthly desire of a human being is making a strong show in my life. I am doing things that I believe it's wrong from the eyes of God but is trying to find ways to "justify" it by saying that time has evolved and circumstances change.

I know the struggle I am having is one major reason why I am not "hearing" God. I have no doubt He hears my prayer and I have no doubt He would never abandon me but I also know that He is not "speaking" to me at this point until I can go back to Him completely.

Walking the path of Christ is most definitely rewarding but it is also extremely difficult. Our human desire sometimes is so strong that we just want to let go, maybe just for a moment.

Dear Lord Father, I admit I am struggling in a very bad way and I know the only way out is through You. I pray that you will lead me back onto the path. Thank you Lord for not giving up on me. In Jesus name I pray...Amen!