Catching up

Much has happened in the past 3.5 weeks since I last wrote in my blog. Work has been quite busy but that is always the case in the beginning of the year. We also had to recruit a new manager and that is always a difficult task, to make judegment calls and hope that you are right. I simply prayed to the Lord for His wisdom and really hoped that I really listened to Him during the whole process. One of our member from the small group had to return to the US. The German authority did not renew his work visa. Although I don't know him well at all but from the teary goodbyes, I learn that he is truly a servant for Christ. I am sure the Lord is leading him to greener pasture. We are still reading The Jesus I Never Knew and just covered the chapter of Jesus's resurrection. An interesting comment popped up from Julia which I certainly shared. That is we never ever challenged Jesus died for us on the cross and then resurrected. Even before I became a Christian, that has always been an unquestionable truth to me. However, the interesting part is there are many passages in the Old Testament that really stumped us. The description of God in the Old Testament is a cruel and jealous God. Before I became a Christian, that was what really stopped me from wanting to be a Christian. Now that I have been baptised and saved, I still have queries about the same passages in the Old Testament but simply pray that the Lord will give me the wisdom to eventually understand. Or maybe I never will understand but that I will simply have a chance to ask Him directly when we finally go home to Him.

I will be volunteering with Youth Compass to bring teenagers to Romania for a week of build and bonding. This whole idea absolutely terrifies me. I know I have no patience. I need to have control. I don't want people to think I am uncool! However, this experience will exactly place me in the very territory of my fear. I believe God has a purpose. Maybe He realize that Mocha certainly didn't help me to change but He knows that I need to change in order to truly reflect His glory. So He now places me in this enviornment so I must seek Him and surrender to Him completely in order to really learn. I pray that the Holy Spirit will be in me to lead me and guide me so that I may finally walk in the same foot steps as God in these areas. Amen!