All roll into one

9 March 8pm
I was mesmerized by our speaker, Lai Keng Pousson. Dee introduced her as a true prayer warrior. She talked about the perseverence of prayer, of never giving up, of prayer lasting beyond our life time. She talked about how prayer is to change status quo. She said the Lord told her not to accept title for she is already ordained by God. The Lord wanted her to be ordinary so she can relate to ordinary people, people of everyday life. She told our women group that we should never give up on having a mate for the Lord designed for most of us to have a mate to serve Him in a even more powerful way. That unless we have been specially set aside by the Lord to serve Him as a single woman, that we should never give up on praying to the Lord to give us someone that "deserve" us. For the Lord has said that for a man to choose a good wife, he will have good things. Thank you Lord for reminding me to never give up praying to you and to never accept status quo!
9March 1pm
My second session of Alpha. Today's topic was Who is Jesus? I thought Nicky Gumble presented a very logical explanation of why Jesus is real. We then had an open discussion to talk about what we have heard. We broke into small groups and in our group there were a few pre-believers. One guy played the devil's advocate and was asking what if even with all those copies that were written about Jesus in the New Testament, how do we know it's true? Maybe all these people are from a cult or they simply copied from each other. How do we know that it's the truth? Our facilitator is a gentle-man and he said that although it's not impossible but it's likely to be improbable. He said that if Jesus is not real, then even if people were simply copying from each other, they would cease after-awhile as people would feel that it's a hoax. If tens of thousands of people are willing to "copy" the story then there must be some truth. The guys was still twisting the words and I don't know what came over me. I started to get irritated and self-righteous and challenged his belief in historical figures like Ceasar or Heredoctus and whether he think they are real although there are far less copies of stories devoted to them. He didn't want to asnwer and I just kept pushing and pushing as if I was in a battle. Afterward I felt terrible. What if this pre-believer gets turn off by my action because he thinks all Christian behave so badly! I have displayed no traits of Christ's character. Please forgive me my Father in Heaven, for I have let you down. I pray that the man will return to hear Your Words for You are the Light, the Truth and the Life!
7/8March 630am
Maybe this is my quiet time with the Lord. Maybe the way the Lord wants me to spend time with Him is not necessary sitting in a room alone. I went running both monrings. Got up at 630am and went out for my run. It was quiet and still dark outside. I ran and ran and had my ipod on. But I could feel Him, He reminded me to count my blessings. Thank you Lord Father for giving me such amazing parents. They are loving, caring, patience, and have given only the best to us and love us unconditionally. Thank you Lord for my sister and my brother. They are not just my siblings but my best friends. They are always there for me and love me even when I am being ridiculous. Thank you Lord for giving me the gift of discipline, of strength, of compassion so that I may serve You through serving Your children. Thank you Lord for surrounding me with brothers and sisters in Christ so that I will not easily stray, that they are there to pray for me and to love me and to remind me of Your Words and Your Love and Your Faith!

Lord Father, You are the Alpha and the Omega. Thank you Jesus for sitting at the right hand of our Heavenly Father, to continue to pray and intercede for us 24/7! Praise You and Thank You for our past, our present and our future. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!